From Podcast to Realizing There Are 75 Million American Napoleons

*Blog post was started on June 22, 2021.

From Podcasts to Realizing There Are 75 Million American Napoleons

With this week's "NinetyForChill dot Com - The Podcast" lacking a theme, it seems that I let out a lot of my ideas that I would usually rant and rave about in the hour conversation with ThePoeticCritic. Putting that episode up left me feeling that I had pretty much addressed my issues with the "Morbidly Macabre" co-host Mitchell Whitt who took five minutes of his podcast saying I was out of line for sharing a link to the show on Facebook while also pointing out the shortcomings of the episodes for wrestling fans.

It was not that they got their info about the focus of the episode, Chris Benoit, wrong because they did not. Their beliefs on what the wrestling business was/is and how it operates were. Anyone who listens to wrestling podcasts would be rolling their eyes or yelling at their player for their misconceptions. In the end, saying that I was upset because they did not state the flavor of Benoit's essence is the primary host just being bitter.

At least I got to hear Mitchell's bullshit firsthand. But since he gave away his strategy to even this out (by conning back on my podcast), I guess he thought that I would not help a friend out. He did not expect me to listen to his podcast. Maybe he just did that all as a bit, but if you are an adult, handle those who have supposedly trespassed against you as one. All you had to do was ask me to elaborate on why I was critical or not to promote your efforts if I am not 100% satisfied with the end result.

If anything, I would appreciate that feedback. At least you get to determine who the assholes are that way. The only time I really got complaints that were typed up about what I wrote was for "Racism Can Play in Peoria. What About Your Local Wrestling?". There was some acceptable criticism to start. Once one of those parties asked to share the link himself (not stating that he would skew it towards those who he knew it may piss off), the readers he targeted went after me for being bitter and stupid for stating how I was wronged and how the promotion being discussed was in the right to use the confederate flag for promotion. It is just infuriating that instead of addressing with the expectation of learning from it, they go and attack. What is the deal with all of these inferiority complexes?

If I go into that, maybe I will discover that I am the pot calling the kettle black. Kettle please.

I guess my issue is that I feel broken, not inferior. There is nothing that I would change about myself except acting on fortune favoring the bold. It is something that I have been working on, but it leaves me feeling that was a lesson my parents chose not to teach (Per chance the basis of an inferiority complex). That may have been because they picked up my risk taking nature early on, but it is tough for me to figure out how. My fear of the dark was not conquered until junior high and jumping from the high dive never happened.

How and why I get upset is that these assholes who take everything as an attack seem to thrive. The final straw that led me to leave Peoria was realizing the last friend from high school that I had any sense of frequent contact with was only friends with people whom he could use. It may just be short-term rewards, but it may have been nice to be in a position to start a family. Seeing a racist who was incapable of displaying empathy get those opportunities ahead of me does grind my gears. As I said though, this could be diminishing rewards. Read some of his wife's Facebook posts, and you realize that she was his kind of sucker.

I guess I have a righteous nature. Being right about something that people doubted you on is rewarding, but it will not get you a wrestling booking let alone laid. It just feels like quitting if you give up on focusing on fixing wrongs or expressing ideas that should benefit everyone. If only my nihilism was a little bit more intense. But then there would be people suffering and regardless if my life is fleeting, I do not feel its right to consider everyone else's to be. They need to learn that lesson on their own.

I would probably just be killing some time coming up with the next incarnation for the Men's Duos World Championship if people realize that criticism is about fixing problems. They should never be seen as attacks. If anything, my reaction to it, at worst, is saying that I am just incapable of making a change. What I have going for me is that I at least know the world is not going to accommodate for me. 

And it should not. I am a white cis male. This is being brought up because I know that I come from a group that has the most people who can help others and not struggle in doing so. Hence, supporting changes to benefit people not in my group is the right thing to do. So in the end, I have discovered that 75,000,000 Americans have an inferiority complex. The lack of mental health is the true pandemic. 

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